yah know what yah i will write in here.. and i probably shouldnt because just looking at a pic makes me cry but oh fuckin well... this sucks.. just plain old sucks. actually no no no i cant write.. hah cuz i have 1034394 things runnign thru my head with this right now.. idk if any will come out.. and i should probably stop trying before i get another good ol crying session going on.

honestly tho.. why cant this just be easier.. then again i shoudl ask that about other things too.. but.. whatever.. guess living life the hard way is the way for me. and ill just keep setting myself up for failure... and sometimes ill hurt others in the process.. and then even while ive hit rock bottom ill continue to beat myself for hurting those i loved, well. no longer.