k, and the profile is changed.. and the decision has been made. I know i hurt her and it seems dumb that now she needs to prove herself.. bu ti dont think she realizes.. upto that point in the summer.. how much i gave her.. she doesnt know what i put myself thru for her.. and how many times i SHOULD have walked away or i should have gotten someone above me and i didnt. maybe i really was beign dumb or maybe i still am. but.. whatever. its done. I was told by my doctor i need to "conquer" my stressors whether it makes me happy or not, cuz in the end, less stress will make me happier.. so thats what im doing..