OMG... and another thing, seriously.. and people ownder why I think songs are signs.. so I was making a present for my brother and one of the pics I used was from my bday party... which happened to be the same day that some of the whole journal/crush thing was happening.. and i remembered.. and kinda just, thought of her or whatever... so like... no joke, MINUTES later i hear a song on the tv.. idk what it was about, i wasnt watching it. All I know is that the TV was on FX and my mom was watching Romancing the Stone, so i know it wasnt that movie.. but it was that horrible song she had blasting out of her sisters bedroom one day when we were on the trampoline.. the "I hurt myself today.." or cut myself today.. idk that guy and he doesnt really sing... he just like talks.. and its... depressin.. well it started playing... and i fucked up a picture... haha
and my mom happened to walk by and kinda looked at me, and i just said it was from the dog bites.. cuz my arm isnt working well.. hah. but.. wtf ya know.. and i thought it was funny that out of all the songs.. it plays one that she thought was funny to play around me since I didnt like it.. It's weird.. when things go wrong with friendships.. sometimes the annoying times.. in memories become the happy ones.. like well not annoying.. but it upset me that she had such a scary song on a cd.. and she jsut thought it was funny to listen to it around me.. and then.. it did kinda erk me.. cuz it upset me.. and now when i look back on it.. i kinda chuckle.. cuz.. idk she was always a goofball. and always pushing my buttons... but she always knew how to push them.. cuz i never actually got mad at her....
anyways.. i gotta go clean before the family gets here.. err.. I really hate the holidays... well I've only hated them for the past 2... and what a coincidence... hah. I was actually thinking about leaving Kel... a card in her mailbox... not signing it... so theres no proof its from me.. but putting a pic of me and matt.. and maybe one with erin also in it.. and labeling the back... but.. idk.. i dont wanna think about it... im already bummed enough, hah. and sore, WHO HONESTLY LETS THEIR FUCKIN DOG JUST NAW ON THEIR "BEST FRIENDS" ARM!?!?! hoenstly.. my whole left forearm is swollen and yellowy blue.. thanks friend... thanks.