i just hate how i have to pay for shit that i really didnt do!!! The Zach thing.. ya we made out... he left her alone.. i did her a favor i probably diseases from him! and now hes gay anyways or so says his myspace, hahaha. but she said he really was an ass... so whats it matter if i knew that and thats why it was done. plus... he really didnt give a fuck about her.. i could have had a relationship and i didnt.. i just wanted him away from her. the lesbo thing. I WAS NOT SAYING SHIT. i told my friends.. like my CLOSE friends... not to gossip.. but for help with it. cuz i didnt think she was, and she says shes not now.. so idk if it was for attention or what. so i just needed help. and when her friends came to me, they'd bring it up like they already knew. and i'd try not to say much.
Why do i have to be blamed because of OTHER peoples assumptions. When i todl Zach i told him you thought you were a lesbian.. but i didnt think you were, i never have. like i said, when i told my friends, i always said she thinks she is.. but i dont.. and i asked them how i could help her find out who she is. which maybe she really is and shes not ready to accept it, but idk.... i love how i automatically told everyone that... when 1. I didnt tell many people at all, only my close friends or i discussed it with your friends who brought it up. and 2. i always said i didnt think you were.!!!

and with the fuckin nicole thing.. er that really pissed me off. the only time i bad mouthed her and nicole was to alex. and it really wasnt even that bad. cuz alex told me some sketchy stories about nicole and i was a little intoxicated and blurted that you had a crush on me, but once again im pretty sure i said i didnt believe it.. but alex was creating the stories too. telling me it would be possible for those 2 to be involved. and all i said was, "well i hope they are fuckin happy together and will just leave me alone."
at the fair... many of your friends came up to me.. some to tell me about what you were saying about me... and others talking about you and nicole living together. and my reply was "hey as long as she's happy." Not saying YES they are in a relationship, or denying it. just saying as long as going ot her house makes you happy. I didnt say as long as she makes her happy, i said as long as shes happy. some of her close friends though were the ones with GROUPS of people... who were telling stories.. about you staying at her house, back rubs all the time.. yah i dont see the big deal either.. but i tried not to get involved and look at where it fuckin got me...
i guess now im at my angry stage..
cuz i lost a friend over a lot of shit that needs to be cleared up. and if we still arent gonna be friends even if it gets cleared up thats fine. but i bet you wouldnt think this bad of me if you knew ALL the truth.. and how the poeple you are probably around everyday are more harmful than who i am today... but whatever, i can't change antyhing. some people must learn the hard way. and i dont think this gets read anymroe.