wow that was really fuckin dumb.. hahaha i just checked her away message... and then decided to write an entry... but i clicked her name instead of this one... hah.. so i sent it to her... but it said somethign about how i forgot she had IMed me last night.. but i remembered this morning by my away message and i was pretty happy. cuz i mean i didnt ask for the friendship back.. and occasional IMing wont fix awkward basketball games... but i mean.. its a step away from hating me.. which is what i was trying to get away from. Im not gonna pressure her with this at all cuz whatever she decides works for me... i'll just avoid encounters... well more with her family than with her.. her and i can walk by eachother fine.. but her parents must finally hate me or something cuz they did not speak to me.. so whatever... well now that i feel humiliated for sending that entry to her... im leaving