So I found an old CD... with "OLD COMP STUFF" on it.. and I put it in.. it has... IMs.. from friggin.. 2003... so I looked at some with Em.. not very exciting. i have all the exciting ones saved.. So i went in and looked at all the ones on 2 17.... and it looks like every year... its been a bad day.. on Feb 17 2003... brit and I got in a huge fight, in 2004, Em and I got into a fight, and iddnt talk for a couple weeks. feb 17 2004, Timmy shoots himself... wtf?! actually I think the most interesting IMs on this are either from Kristy or Brit. I used to be.. .really dumb. and these IMs just make me laugh.. and they kinda suck too.
BritnieMahre12 (9:09:51 PM): britt considers you as a Bff and you dont even talk to her..well i guess she should just forget about the relationship because parently u dont care about it
THat is what courtney sent me 2/17/2003.. and hten of course, I freaked otu and said i did care but i was having a hard time. and getting walked on and cutting.
but still.. holy moly. ouch. hah. see, I didnt even remember this fight, and this one ended with Brit telling me to fuck off and me calling her pyscho
but then there are happy IMs about sports, and hanging out, and us just insulting eachother 24/7
alright well i found a SHITLOAD of pics I gotta go get developed and loaded online.. so.. i will write in here later after I read up some IMs.. cuz Im thinking.. if I read up on teh Kristy, Brit, Em ones.. I'll be able to see wher ei fucked up.. which i pretty much know anyways.. but i feel like my friendships are on repeat...
ok so.. I feel like an ass again.. i actually havent left yet.. well i just wrote that entry 2min ago but... hah.. ok i NEED to put this is here.. cuz these are the times I remember.. and this is why i feel like an ass.. cuz I remember these days. and that I fucked them up..
Brit if your reading this entry. I'd say stop. or dont read on. I just kinda want this saved. It's a letter I'll always cherish.

Hey, I am sorry for yelling and bitching at you...It wasn't all cortney..it was partially me. I was pissed off at different people because they know when to say the wrong things at the wrong time. But when you wrote that thing that said something like see you on the other side waiting with Keith...That totally flipped me out..and i started crying ( in my closet) and i was scared because i didnt want anything to happen to you because you mean a lot more than you think to me. and all the stuff i said about wanting to be just like you and how i thought you were the perfect person...It's all true. You may not believe it or not but it is.
But yeah you do and did a lot for me like goin to my games, and many other things and I love you for that.yeah i understand that you may want to be around people more your age but cort and i feel like you are just forgeting about us. and last night when you said that Emily was you Best Friend, I think i may have gotten a little jealous because I cnosidered you as my best friend and you didnt consider me as one..but o well i guess..I'll soon get over it. But Cort is waiting for me and i guess i will write and finish this email later...But just remember that You can tell me things and talk to me about things..you may think i am too young to understand but I understand more things that you think..lol. But talk to you later..Love ya!!
~*Britts*~

P.S your still Captain Cluck Nut!!!! lol:-)
even tho we've both caused our fair share of problems... I feel like a huge ass. How did I go from being someone she looked upto.. to being probably the number 1 person she'd love to punch in the face?? Yah.. that takes talent... or bad luck.
What I honestly think.. is that.. I have really good luck with MY LIFE.. but I really do try to help others with my life... but i have bad luck with people. Cuz.. i have incredilbe luck with driving and otehr stupid shit I do.. but.. other people.. hah. but Im hoping to fix that!:-) hence the researching. and Kristy and Brit are prob the best to investigate.