I will write a little bit later.. im... still taking everything in.. hah.. my head hurts... and now im hanging out with a guy.. that might attack me... for sex... great.. wonderful.. yay.. alright well if i write i survive. sighs... i feel like such an ass.... seriously. If i ever fuck up this bad with someone again... idk what i'll do.. cuz.. I just wanted to put my head into the cement wall.. I deserve it.. she should have punched me... i dont think her parents know much.. but they probably caught on tonight.. I was talking to her dad.. when i saw her coming i left... when i came back in i like.. didnt say anything.. i fuckin wanted to.. i wanted to say, good game, now come outside with me and punch me in the face. or torture me or whatever do whatever!! alright.. i gotta go.. ill write.. 11ish prob.. i hope... er. im sad.