One thing I have noticed... Is that the longer this goes on.. without me knowing what I've done... the less and less I do wanna be there.. cuz this just digs a hole in me... and im not gonna be able to take it much longer. No matter what I said. Plus, technically I wouldn't be like everyone else, cuz if she wanted a friendship... she'd tell me... so perhaps I should just go back to the old plan. Walk away, until she tells me what she wants... well not walk away but. yah know. wait for whats going on. Cuz I've just done too much stupid shit to fuck this up again...