Im glad im not as obsessed with checking profiles..... cuz idk if that fuckin thing he said is about me.. but every fuckin time i see it... errr..... but whatever... i just dont look anymore and its all good.. not like i need to check her profile anyways. but when people randomly IM you info they wouldnt tell someone unless they cared.. but they act like they fuckin dont... you get all paranoid and annoyed.. and shit runs thru your head.. like it is mine right now.. and its annoying.. but then again... its not... cuz... there is an easy way out if i ever need it... luckily im not afraid to take it.. and with the mind games.. whether intentional or not.. its pretty fuckin tempting... comment if you read this and im all wrong... but if you like playing mind games...
well... i fuckin dont.. and i wont take part in them.. so if you someday may wanna trust me or keep me around.. cut the fuckin shit. oops.. is and yous.... umm... well anyways.. she will probably grow out of them.. but i already fuckin have.. and when i put shit in my profile.. its not to hurt her... and hers... well they dont fuckin make me smile.. maybe people were right when they said age matters.
doesnt mean im giving up on her at all... but... i guess it means theres always a lot more to fight through.... but in the end.. a true friend is worth it.. i guess thats just what im trying ot figure out... if i am her true friend.. otherwise.. i gotta be done with this... its absolutely exhausting mentally... emotionally... sometimes even phsycially.. to try to figure out this friendship.. but for me.. its worht it.