Second Thought

OK.. so i said last night Id finish it.. and i did.. sort of.. and i left the entry open all night.. cuz ive decided... that.. Ill write it in here.. but before I go saying more things.. I really wanna make sure.. its what i think.. and such.. and when i reread the entry.. it was so confusing.. and it seemed like at certain points it was blaming her and i. and I dont wanna put blame on anyone... so.. IDK when Ill have time... maybe later on today.. I think Im going to the game today... so.. perhaps after that I will feel motivated. Id love to tell her good game in person today... but.. IDK. She never really gives me the chance. But I kinda feel like an ass cuz... all the times ive kinda seen her and she didnt say anything.. why would she? I dont see why a good game wouldnt hurt to be thrown out there. We'll see. And Ill obviously mean it. well Ill say whatever i feel the game deserved. but with the last 2 games.. shes done really well. So hopefully today she will do well also. I believe shes pitching.. and Id call Melissa but.. I harass her soo much anyways. But I must go clean... and avoid the boys phone calls.. as if he doesnt get what i mean.. cuz ya the 3 weeks hes home Im magically gonna forgive him and be able to trust him. Yee ha. Not quite. Go back to Iraq and think about what you've done!