I knew it was too good for reality... and I knew I was fuckin it up.. and now .. ugh. Im going outside. Ive been sitting here thinking about things since the Text... its not better for me.. I havent been this happy in a while... but.. can it work... ill quit smoking and drinking. i dont cut anymore.. i dont think i can influence her in any other way... ugh.. ok i seriously need to run now cuz my body is overloading physically cuz of my emotions.. i hate this..