M A Hall 7: and i prob should not talk about it cuz its really nothing

Its the nothing thats haunted me all the years Ive known you and it always will. So there is no point in dicussing it. Ill always have my fear.. and idk why those things today made me think of you first with all the other possibilities.. but.. with this new turn in things.. idk if it helps or hurts my fear...
i shoudl just not worry about anything.... but i feel like the minute one states "hey, im pretty happy" ... shit will happen. whether its to them or their loved ones... idk.. im just weird.. I can survive without the things i control... but the things i cant control.. im too afraid to lose.. which.. makes me stuck. or just super paranoid.. and im not even high!! its probably this end of the period emotional stage.. and they freaky shit today
maybe if i wasnt thinking about what i was... when it all happened... idk.. i believe in signs.. and that was a sign..