This is my farewell to you

There's nothing left for me to do.. I dunno what's happened.. I love how i reassured myself that we would always work our way back to one another... yet.. when you come back i wont be there.. you'll just be another memory. another best friend no one gets to me but always hears about. Ill prob cry over you til the day i die.. Im sure you will cross my mind at least once a day til the day i die.. i feel like i could still live my life for you... or die for you.. or lack of you.. anyway... this is my final good bye. I need to start my process to cope.. and i can't turn back.. It'll be like at longhorn.. any thought of you making me anxious... just 1000000 times worse since you have meant more to me than everything combined in my life.. Good Bye Babers... TATA.. I love you, as always.. maybe, hopefully talk to you again soon.. But more than likely good bye. But that doesn't change the always. ALWAYS. <3

I miss you... like madddd crazy... letting go is the hardest thing to do.. and i love how i piss you off for your mom.. and shes like, eh get over it.

all ive wanted... all ill ever want... and i have you... but why does it scare me so much.... love love love...

mmmmmmmmmmmm I love her so so much :-):-):-):-*:-*

I cant do this fuckin shit anymore...

I cant ever be what you want...
i have for years.. .tried to be what you want.. but i never get it right.. and i never will.. that is ... always gonan kill me
i feel like yoru slowly slipping away... cuz theres something thats just there... buliding.. i swear i can feel it.. and it scares me so much..

i feel l ike yoru trying to pick a fight with me this morning
but i wont fuckin allow it
i dont want this going like every other time... my relationships dont last.. whic hi didnt think about before this one cuz i wasnt thinking.. which is why i like to think.. plus how about teh fact that i dont even have myself figured out yet... im in way to deep so i guess ill just stand back and see where this shit takes me